I miss the way you love me. I miss the songs that echoed your love. I feel half alive though I'm finally here in my body. Know that your love brings me to a whole new place of possibility. If you've ever read these words and known me, know me now. As stable as I am I feel only half alive without you're spirit by my side. I'm waiting for you to be with me completely. I know you can do this. This addiction will be cured because you are capable of over coming all things. You are my God. Do you understand. Give up the drug or give me up. You have to choose. I won't be with you like this. This insanity has nearly killed me several times.
We can fly higher touching the ground, in a place where you can be around to hold my hand and I can cook you meals from my home grown greens. Will you allow me to live that life with you? A real life? I adore you. I won't destroy anything else to prove my love for you. Proof will be me there day in and day out, steady, patient, and enduring love. That is my offering. All the rest would be a reflection of hate for life, and as far as I'm concerned you are my purpose and if I want a life of love with you I am obligated to love my life and all things in it in order to establish a life where we can thrive in love together. I'm capable of doing that, I just need you to come home clean and sober. We don't need to be the world's heros. What the world needs is more stable homegrown people who can interact with the world with dignity and honor. This includes peaceful interactions and concern for the well being of all involved.
When we are ready to interact with our world in this way we will automatically be walking the same path and we can be together. Until that day I will be cheering you on and loving you from afar.
Thank you for all you do for me. I love you unconditionally and eternally, yet there on conditions upon how I can love you. Please understand that.

Sincerely,
Your Lil