Friday, January 4, 2013

The Beginning


I’m preparing to ascend. I am Lillith, the first and eternal companion of the Son Adam. Before I was brought to this planet I was first born into physical being on the planet Sirius A. Born as the daughter of the God and Goddess Nin, they being two of the purest souls in existence provided me with every opportunity to become a Goddess in the safety of their Kingdom.
I was born at a time of great war amongst the various worlds. The threat of galactic  annihilation was as much a threat as it is today on planet Earth. As a desperate attempt to unify the Galaxy  the first offspring from each world was taken from the various Gods and Goddesses, as directed by the Galactic Federation.
My Mother Nin had no choice in the matter, I was violently kidnapped from Her bedside. Her screams, even now after thousands of years still echo in my mind. My Father, by obligation to the Council under the threat of death, was likewise powerless in the matter.
Twelve of us, six male, six female, were sent to planet Earth as a training and experimental site for the varied worlds to observe and learn from our interactions.
Adam is the Son of the God and Goddess Nibiru of Sirius B, sister planet to my home planet Sirius A. From before conception Adam and I were betrothed. As a higher Universal law for conception, it is custom for every perspective Mother to arrange a union with an equal Mother in status and intelligence in order to simultaneously conceive. According to Universal Law it is the responsibility of the God and Goddess of every world to bring new spirits into the world, and all new spirits come from a bank of neutral spirit matter. This matter is then divided into a positive and negative source, otherwise known as Twin Flames.
It is also custom on all evolved planets for the God and Goddess to live amongst their children, but due to the circumstances we were raised only with the guidance of Council, who had become “corrupted” by the Reptilians, a species from outside our Galaxy. The Reptilians were a much stronger matriarchal civilization than our own, which was governed by a Patriarchal Order.

Just as all things micro within the Universe are reflected in the macro, so too were these macro imbalances of our Galaxy reflected in the relationships of the Divine here on Earth.

Adam was the first materialized here on Earth. His home planet being known as the “Water World” the physical makeup of His body was altered and infused with the Sun energy of Pisces, and Moon energy of Aries. I came second. My body altered and infused with the Sun energy of the Taurus constellation, and the Moon energy of Aquarius.
Left to our own accord within the Garden we played endlessly and effortlessly. Our love in union is so powerful that when observed by one with an open heart the healing affects are instant and vast. Yet just as there is a masculine principle for every feminine, so too must there exist an equal and opposite to every force within the Universe. So it was with our love.
Ours was the purest love ever witnessed in our Galaxy. The Council, motivated by bewilderment and jealousy of our love, began interjecting in our relationship on the grounds of “experimental  fluctuations in the dynamics of our union”. This included teaching us the Dogma and Morals of the Federation. One of these was the principal of the male being the primary councilor and head of the union, and the one responsible for reporting to Council.
I being infused with the sufferings of my mother as an infant instinctively refuted this dogmatic principal full heartedly, becoming the Galaxy’s first feminist, and putting me Adam between Me and the Council of the Federation, His seat as the leader of the twelve original Earth inhabitants, and eons of Universal culture.
Me, being from Sirius A -the home of the Feline race- was imprinted with the genetic history of a polygamous society (this maintaining a primal and easily controllable society). My primary rejection to Adam’s externally influenced authority over me was genuinely instinctual.
At the same time I was proclaiming my own equality to my Twin Masculine Partner, trillions of females throughout the Galaxy were rebelling, causing what would eventually be a restructuring of the Universal Order. Yet, it would be thousands of years before any of this would produce balance in the Universe, be known to Me, and it would be just as long a time before Adam and I would be reconciled in our love.
By refusing to follow the “Order”, I was forced to step down from my position as First Woman, (although they can never truly take that position from Me). This included my position as Adam’s wife and constant companion. Under this threat, the Council was sure they had secured a stronghold on Me to “keep Me in my place”, but their plan was thwarted by the Reptilians.
It was from the assistance of these beings that I was able to escape the strongholds of the Council and Federation. They created a modulated reality that coincides as an alternative realm on planet Earth, and offered this realm as my own as a token of alliance between us for the sake of my cause: Female Equality. I agreed, knowing full well the responsibility I was granted.
In that hour I became the Greatest Enemy to my Greatest Love, and everything He represented. Not only were the Reptilians a primarily Matriarchal society, but were the targeted enemy of the Galaxy. Blamed for all internal scandal and misconduct of the Federation, the Reptilians bore the shame of the entire Galaxy. I would come to understand and love this race of beings, yet never forsaking my organic roots and love for Adam.
Somewhere in my soul I knew that the only way back home was through a Galactic Peace Portal I myself was forging. And though He hasn’t personally confirmed this, within my soul I believe that Adam knew as well, that the only way we would generate the peace we were seeking for All - the same genuine peace we experience organically together, when left to our own accord- could only be achieved by allowing Me to leave the Garden, He being at the time powerless to the strength of the Federation and attachment to dogmatic principals. So He tenderly held Me and kissed Me goodbye, and watched as I walked out of the domain of His realm and into my own, becoming “fallen, to slither on my belly as a serpent all my days”, as the Council put it.
With no end in sight we were both forced to move on with our own separate states of existence. Once on the other side of the veil I wept bitterly, creating the River Nile with my tears. I felt the depths of feminine injustices of my Galaxy. The emotion, later to be known as Anger, raged through my body, dividing the land into great hordes of rock that spilt the firey blood of the Earth, and carved the land with fire, rapid waters and acid rain.
My body changed form many times during that era. I experienced the feminine aspects of creation from many different perspectives, and would eventually journey through every possible carnation on this planet. I am the Earth, for our energy is one. Because of this I have grown so powerful that my soul’s emotions can cause “natural disasters” due to elemental response.
I became Lillith, Goddess and Queen of the Underworld, Mother of the “demons” and the Fallen State of the Earth that we are ALL now living in. I Am the Mother of the Pagan Religions that “worship the Devil”, or as the true Pagan refers to as the “Divine Feminine”. I am the most Evol of all Earth’s creatures, and an enemy to “Heaven”, or rather the Feds. But no one ever mentions that Evol is the opposite twin of Love. I suppose this is because of a general sense of fear that has been generated around Me due to political circumstances and agenda. Yet it remains, there is no such things as good/bad, love/evil, right/wrong... They just are in order to provide experience, understanding and balance, which equates to PEACE.
Now, before I get to the part in Herstory where I “beguiled Eve, get Adam and Eve banished from the Garden of Eden” and eventually enter into union with Satan and Lucifer, I want to first enlighten the reader with a more person and modern view of the “baby and mother killing Shedevil”, the world has heard so little and incongruently about for HIStory. I believe after awhile you begin to see why my reputation has been so intentionally tainted.
This life, the last and final carnation before ascension, is a conglomeration of all our past lives, jam packed with similes, “after”-shadowings, and transmuted replays of all karmic cycles. Ourstory is the future, lives beyond past and present, further exploration of the Galaxy, always sure that we are unwavering in our plan from start to finish. The details of this existence delight my sense of wonder.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

I miss the way you love me. I miss the songs that echoed your love. I feel half alive though I'm finally here in my body. Know that your love brings me to a whole new place of possibility. If you've ever read these words and known me, know me now. As stable as I am I feel only half alive without you're spirit by my side. I'm waiting for you to be with me completely. I know you can do this. This addiction will be cured because you are capable of over coming all things. You are my God. Do you understand. Give up the drug or give me up. You have to choose. I won't be with you like this. This insanity has nearly killed me several times.
We can fly higher touching the ground, in a place where you can be around to hold my hand and I can cook you meals from my home grown greens. Will you allow me to live that life with you? A real life? I adore you. I won't destroy anything else to prove my love for you. Proof will be me there day in and day out, steady, patient, and enduring love. That is my offering. All the rest would be a reflection of hate for life, and as far as I'm concerned you are my purpose and if I want a life of love with you I am obligated to love my life and all things in it in order to establish a life where we can thrive in love together. I'm capable of doing that, I just need you to come home clean and sober. We don't need to be the world's heros. What the world needs is more stable homegrown people who can interact with the world with dignity and honor. This includes peaceful interactions and concern for the well being of all involved.
When we are ready to interact with our world in this way we will automatically be walking the same path and we can be together. Until that day I will be cheering you on and loving you from afar.
Thank you for all you do for me. I love you unconditionally and eternally, yet there on conditions upon how I can love you. Please understand that.

Sincerely,
Your Lil

Monday, April 25, 2011

The Unsung

Are you going to be man enough to let me stay and be there when the rush of emotion takes my breath away and leaves my cheeks like the ocean barren of sand? Times are a chang'n and I can feel the lightness of everything come washing over me and my dreams become my colorful reality with faces filled with joy and a tendency to heal with ecstasy. Where else could I go to find the purest sense of me than where one becomes two and meets the divine. Where else do the trees stretch out into vast expanses of diamond leaves and heal the child in me.
Here in our secret chamber we can put into words a flood of the visably unseen. Whatever our bodies expressed that night I'll put into flight and dance free through the nights of wonder as the Sun makes it's way closer to becoming every bit of You. So lets let go of our pasts and sing through the corruption as it sinks fast into the eternal blue of your eyes. I can't pretend just be human when swimming through orgasms of sound waves flowing through every sore, casting spells of beauty on the open dance floor.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Walking memory

I have walked these streets before. Like tiny gems dropped along the way I collect the pieces of memory and put them in their place amongst the stars. Like a ghost I appear to be resurrected in the moment as a women free from the death of yesterday. I have seen their faces in dreams. I have said words without the means of understanding of who I am destined to be. Along the shores of sunlit seamlessness there is an echo of confusion from those who I left behind one Sun cycle ago. All the seasons have washed clean the days when we walked these streets as a band to be; now we walk independently of the need to see through another's eyes.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

The Earth and Llly

While in observation of the heavy clouds filling the horizon I question whether the Earth with all her dimensions has the ability to reveal her intentions clearly to the Universe. The Milky Way, while in constant apprehension of new inventions put on display, watches her night and day as she twists and turns around the Sun. At her core a passion burns with an intensely hot enough to burn up the weight of irony left behind for me to filter through.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

A New Day

Light shines down upon fields of sound waves
I have eternity to dwell in the ecstasy of You
For only a moment more will our hearts live in a state of separation
The hours are limited
Never before has the Earth felt such turmoil
Never before have the souls danced with such intensity upon the grounds of despair
All my days I have journeyed to find You
Never knowing our paths were the same
I am awakening in the light of Your love
Optimism is no blind existence
I see and feel and hear the same dying world you do
The difference between us my friend is simple
I know where the darkness leads to...
A new day!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

February 6, 2008

The wind blows fierce through the window seems, whistling secrets of far away places that call me by name to come out and explore the forgotten lands of the outer realm. To often I fall complacent to the warm surroundings of my inner world, so much so that it takes a great amount of psychological persuasion to bring me to the surface of my own imaginative reality.

Love,
ME